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Lenten Devotional: Wednesday, February 28
"Already and Not Yet" - Andover Newton's Lenten Devotional Series

"Already and Not Yet" is the 2018 Lenten Daily Devotional written by members of the Andover Newton community, which is also being shared at Facebook and on Twitter. Future posts here will include links to all the previous entries for easy browsing to any you might have missed or might want to revisit.

Wednesday, Feb. 28, 2018
“Always Recovering; Never Recovered" – Ned Allyn Parker

"Always recovering; never recovered.”

I heard this phrase uttered by others before finding my own sobriety. It confused me. Was it hopeful?

I know this: I made it through yesterday with my sobriety intact. I hope I will tomorrow, too. But tomorrow isn’t here yet.

So, I focus on today.

I have already lived this way, one day at a time, for five years.

I have not yet made it through today. But, yesterday gives me hope that I will. The 1,825 days before yesterday give me hope, too.

But today? Today, I live intentionally. I remember how profoundly different life was 1,826 days ago.

Today, I am grounded in hope. I am grounded in memories that hold me accountable. I am grounded in a community that loves me, just as I am.

Today, if I hear a Divine Voice call my name, I will answer: “Here I am.” My answer will be free of shame and full of expectation. It will be my authentic voice – not incoherent or slurred. Here I am. This is me. Owning it. Hopeful.

I am no longer confused. I am free.

And I am always recovering, never recovered. May it continue to be so.

Pray with me: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.

Ned Allyn Parker (MDiv ’10) is the Alumni/ae and Development Officer for Andover Newton.

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